.. vim: set syntax=rst nosmartindent spell spelllang=en_us: Worked with Angie Last Night (part two) ======================================= Once Angie and I arrived, we carried a few coolers in from her truck to the kitchen. I saw other waiters there. Angie, Jake, and I were setting up little plates in the kitchen and then Angie left for a minute. I asked Jake what these things are like. I figured I could find out if he's done a lot of these. He said he mostly does these because it's fun to be in these houses. The house was in the neighborhood with all the old oil baron mansions. They're all gorgeous with amazing lawns and gardens. I realized that it was pretty exciting to be inside of one for the first time. Awe inspiring, even if I was effectively the modern version of a servant. Anyhow, while I worked with Jake in the kitchen, I looked around. This was obviously not a restaurant kitchen. Instead of stainless steel equipment that was designed completely for use, and not at all for aesthetics, this kitchen was beautiful. There were potted plants here and there, bright white tiles on the counters with nice dark blue borders. Nice stereo speakers built into the house played some nice music. There were plenty of windows too. Restaurant kitchens don't usually have windows. Restaurant kitchens are cramped, noisy, often really hot, and people are moving fast. But preparing trays with with Jake in this beautiful kitchen felt like a totally different experience. ---- While we worked, I told Jake I was surprised she included me with the other people working tonight... they were the seafood house super star crew. Then Jake said, "You take this too seriously." He said how anybody could do this job. Then he said, "Well, anybody With at least slightly above average looks." I said this job is physically demanding though. Not everyone can walk for like four hours straight. And you gotta act nice even when people are rude. Then Jake said, "The real kicker is you can't be qualified to do anything that pays better. Because this is a job of last resort." ---- I followed Jake out of the kitchen into the main area of the house, each of us holding trays of snacks. I scanned the room itself and the people in the room. There are young people at the party. Like people my age. I wasn't prepared for this. It's one thing for me to act submissive to people older than me, but serving rich young kids is hard for me. I start hearing an old voice in my head. He points out how unfair life is. Our society says they get to relax tonight while Angie and me bring their snacks. I can't win the debate in my head and it just gets me angry to think about it. I push it down. That voice. He's the bitter guy I used to be a little while ago, before I got picked up. He wasn't wrong. Life is cruel. Anyone that says otherwise is selling something. But that's not the whole story, either. We can help each other out. The choice isn't just between killing ourselves or not killing ourselves. It's between killing ourselves or trying to helping each other out. That was the part I didn't have before. I was overwhelmed. It's still not that comforting, but it's something. ---- I overheard a lot of conversation snippets tonight. This was easy work. Just take trays from the kitchen, walk around the fancy house and hand out the food. There were no orders to record. No specials to describe. No risk of getting three new tables sitting down all at the same moment. I spied on as many conversations as I could. I heard one dude say how his firm is looking for a new executive assistant and they got dozens of applications. The dude was pretty crass about it. Said how when lots of attractive women apply, he knows his competitors must not be doing great, or these women would already jobs. There must not be a lot of open jobs if he was getting so many applications. It's strange -- it feels predatory just writing down what I heard the guy saying. As if me writing it down now somehow means I'm endorsing it. But I thought again about how Jake said how restaurant jobs are often people's last resort. Jake was saying that working in fine dining takes a certain kind of person, and usually those people have much better options. This job is physically demanding. You get unpredictable pay but most of the time it isn't great. Most people aren't impressed by it either. So in many ways they were saying the same thing. There's not a lot of good options for people without certain skills and connections so we're fighting over scraps. And when there's a lot of people willing to do the work, it's hard to negotiate. So we take whatever pay they offer and work really hard. This set up benefits the folks that were at the party. And it dawned on me that if I could figure that out, then they certainly had as well. Maybe the whole point of politics, if you peel back enough layers of indirection and euphemism and nice speeches, maybe the whole point is just one side trying to protect its unfair advantage from the other side. Like when the peasants are too many, the king can see who is willing to debase themselves the most. Of course it's more complex than that. I've got a stack of textbooks trying to explain how it all really works. But at its heart, this dude was pretty happy with the situation. It suits him just fine to have a parade of desperate young women hoping for a job. Meanwhile, she's making just barely enough to pay her rent.