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Worked with Angie Last Night (part five)
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9 PM: presentation begins and we get a break.
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Angie and I stood on the back porch so she could smoke.

Viv came out and grabbed Angie's cig.

Viv said something like how she needs a break from smiling for a minute.

It's her from last weekend.  I'm sure of it.  She does the stare again,
where it seems like we all disappear for a moment.

Viv hands back the smoke.  Asks Angie "who is your friend?" Meaning me.

She asks Angie questions about while I'm standing there.  It dawned on
me that this whole night had been about being not acknowledged even
while standing in front of somebody.

At the end of the night, we are packing up.

* Later, she gives each of us an envelope of cash.

* I stare at her hand and it really looks broken.  This is definitely
  the same woman.

* Viv says something like how she can spot a broken heart a mile away.
  Her words cut right through me, because she's right.  I'm not over
  Penny.

* She disappears inside.

* And she says something like "they don't deserve us.  They don't
  deserve how much we adore them.  We're in love with a mirage."

I wanted to say "I was there when this happened" and touch her cast.
But I didn't want her to worry that I was going to cause her trouble.
She made up some other explanation for it, and it didn't feel right to
say anything.

Viv's housekeeper interrupted us and says somebody keeps calling and
asking for her and saying it is urgent.

On the way home I was really tired.
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Angie said she thought about me for this because she figured I would
wanna eavesdrop on the political people.

She was right.  My brain was tingling all night.

I said how the whole thing kinda followed the same rules as working for
tips.  Like watching the guy build rapport and then hint about how their
support would be useful.

Not that different than when I lay down the check and say how it has
been a real joy to having you here. I spent a silly amount of time
thinking about the phrases that said it right.

I didn't like saying "joy serving you" because there's weird s&m tones.

However I don't want to pretend that this is not a transaction.  I did
my part, as best I could, now here is their chance to express their
gratitude or appreciation of my effort.

Anyhow I thought about it a ton.

Angie talked about her cousin more.  "It's funny -- we are both from
really modest backgrounds but she has made it up and out.

"She's a few years older than me.  As a kid, I thought she was so cool."

I mean I heard Viv explain how her hand was in a bandage because of a
completely different reason.

She must not want people to know the truth.

Maybe Angie already knew the truth though.

I said in a silly way, "Do you think your cousin has a secret life, away
from all these old-money people? Like where she sneaks off and gets
drunk in shitty bars and then gets in fights?"

Angie laughed, and said "What?"  I said how Angie knows I have an active
imagination, and that's just something that played in my mind.

Either Angie didn't know what I was hinting about or she didn't want to
acknowledge that I was on the right track.